This year we had a lunar eclipse during Yule. I heard that this was the first one to fall on yule in four hundred years. So I thought long and hard about what I wanted to do for a circle or working. I chose to do a journey. The lunar eclipse is when the moon in the north node of the moon, which means that the energy of the time is about your karma. Any working should be to either understand or heal karma. I chose to do my meditation on what I need to know.
The journey took me to my inner temple, where my guide and totem met me. They directed me to a silvery translucent staircase. I climbed up and up until I got to the moon and through it to a dark garden filled with strange plants. There the goddess came to me in a very artistic representation. Instead of being like a human she looked as if she had been drawn on scratchboard with white outlines detailing her shape. I reiterated my purpose to know that which I needed to know. She showed me and image of a seed growing into a plant. She spoke of the fact that whether or not the plant grew or died it was still the plant it was born as. Factors from the outside may shape it, effect it, nourish it, wither it, or kill it but they would never change it’s nature or virtue.
I asked whether it could be breed it to make its offspring better. She said “Yes but The new plant would be in the same boat. The seed will always be the plant it was born. “ She advised that I embrace my nature and strength, to work through my weaknesses from a place of my own nature. Don’t worry about that which one can’t control because it cant change the internal nature of whom one is.
She gave me some more advice about some personal things and told me to hone my focus and not waste energy.
I thanked her for these messages and returned to my inner temple. Where my guide showed me someone from my past. This old friend, and sometimes enemy and I spoke of forgiveness. How forgiveness does not mean that I will forget what was done or stop it from repeating. Then I sent forgiveness to this person. It came out watermelon colored. Both a deep pink and a green. I heard a message about a crystal that would help me with forgiveness that had watermelon in its name. I asked christopher after the meditation and he said it was perhaps watermelon tourmaline.
During the holidays after this meditation, my mother and I were talking about how it is still hard for me to talk to our other relatives about the way that my life has come out. I joked how explaining my self and who I am seem to be my lot in life. She replied” but didn’t you choose all of it?” I thought for a moment and was reminded of this meditation. I replied:”No some of it was just my nature and to choose otherwise would have been detrimental. One has to embrace there nature.” Though it definitely brought up more thoughts on the nature of self, choice, and the things we can’t control. I recognize my mom was right in a way. I didn’t choose to be gay but I do choose to embrace that side of my life. Much like I choose to breath and live as my nature as a human. To do otherwise would be to choose to wither.
One of the things that I think is so important to the process of going on into the third level is to maintain work with the basics. Yes the level three is filled with journeys and work with guides but it is the things we learn in witchcraft one that give us the “witches fire” to take on the shamanic work. It is often hard to find time for all this work and support.
For example I know that one of my own shadow parts that often defeats me is when I get into a mood where I see my long list of things to do and see that it is never ending. I feel depressed about it and then it starts to leak out into other things in my life souring my reactions. This morning was one of those times.
I have been doing a ritual of discipline using a Sanskrit chant for forty days ending on New Years day to remove obstacles, both internally for all my “parts” to become whole and another chant to deal with helping me in my ministry work. The first chant for removal of obstacles is :” Om Gum Ganapatayei Namaha” Which means “ Om and salutations to the remover of obstacles for which Gum is the seed.” The second is a more well known chant and happens to be one I had a shamanic experience with on my birthday. I woke up thinking our guest was chanting this chant in the middle of the night only to find him asleep on the couch. It is “Om Madne Padne Hum” which embodies the compassion of the enlightened who turned from there own enlightenment to help raise the consciousness of those who are suffering in the world. So to help me get out of my funk I put on some meditative music in my car for my ride to work. I did my two chants 108 times using mala beads to keep count. Then I cleared my chakras using my instant magic trigger and sent Reiki to myself. By the time that my commute was done I was not in a mood anymore but was optimistic. At the end of my drive I did my three soul alignment to give any extra energies released to my higher self.
Most people don’t like having a long commute but I really kind of like it in the fact that it gives me a time where I can use my trigger to help both my self as I did up above, or to send light and reiki to people who are in need. It is amazing how such a little practice can change your life and those of others. If your interested in doing a chanting working similar to mine Look at the book Healing mantras By Thomas Ashley-Farrand
After eating some great cajun chicken Alfredo I had some very startling dreams that I think may have been a attempted spirit attachment. My dream was of a pagan gathering in the park where the police where asking us to leave. I was talking to one of the officers and asking the reasons for wanting us to move. We went to one of the shelters that were in the park. In the shelter was my sleeping bag. The policeman said he would show me not why they wanted us to get out of the area. He started to drum his feet against the ground. The rhythm was repeated by something moving in my sleeping bag. What at first looked like a centipede came out of the bag dancing to the same rhythm that the policeman was drumming. I started up drumming the same beat and the strange animal started to come toward me in the same rhythm but moving much faster. Its mouth open looked like the mouth of a land-prey with a round sucker and teeth that are layered like a shark.
It started toward me. The Policeman told me something about it stealing energy and youth from those it touched. It got closer and mysteriously a dagger materialized in my hand and I Stabbed it. Which is when I woke up screaming. I could feel a difference in the energy in my root chakra. I called up the violet fire I use to clear a space of dense energies and beings.
I have crazy dreams all the time but usually I can figure out what they mean with some reflection. This one screamed to me about a spirit trying to attach itself to me. With some of the things going on in our lives at the moment I could see how this could be a side effect of dramas or its cause. Talking with Christopher he agreed.
My mentor gave me a great suggestion of taking Homeopathy remedy Stramonium which would help fend off spirit attachments and violent dreams. Homeopathy is one way of working with the spirit of a plant to help one make changes in your life. It is very safe and can be used to heal physical diseases as well. Seeing a Homeopath can accelerate your healing path.