Authority

The fourteenth bead in the blessing cord is the blessing of Authority. It is the fire of Chesed. Authority is the power of sovereignty and inner mastery. We have the ability to be sovereign in our lives or we can give our power away to others and to circumstance. The more authority we exert in our lives, the more we can make changes in our lives and be better examples of how life can be to others.

Oftentimes, we don’t want to be the deciding factor in our lives. We let others choose what to have for dinner, where we go on vacation, how our governments are run, and a million other decisions. It feels easier to just release the responsibility for our lives to our partners, our families, our teachers, and to our government. We can then blame them instead of taking responsibility for our choices. Even the surrendering of choice is a choice, however, and we are still responsible for how it turns out when we give our decision-making power to another.

An enlightening view-point I learned from the Silva Mind Control method is that we can always talk ourselves into or out of doing anything. We often come up with reasons and excuses for why we are not doing something or why we want to do something. The only reason we truly need is that we want or don’t want to do something. We add to our mental to-do list things that we think we “should” or “ought” to do; what we think others want us to do or what would be the “right” thing to do. My friend Matooka says, “Don’t should on yourself”.

We also need to have the authority and mastery of our lives to be able to give ourselves permission to take a break. With my own busy partners, I have had to ask them why they can’t give themselves permission to relax. Sometimes I jokingly say “I give you permission to relax today and just enjoy” like I was the king in the situation. It does bring me to the idea of how we are inner sovereign of ourselves and the way we manifest by giving permission.

In this meditation I use some words of power. Words of power is a method of using a declaration or a grouping of affirmations to manifest change. I learned about it from the books of Marion Weinstein. The concept is that you begin by invoking spirit, stating within that the spirit is or contains a manifestation of what you want to become, that you are either in alignment with that greater spirit or an embodiment of that spirit. Then you speak your affirmations of what you want to be. A statement of release and transformation follows for the energies you have released in the past that are not in alignment with your goal, to turn them into what your goal actually needs. Caveats for the work to harm none and be for the highest good. Lastly a declaration of it is so like “so mote it be” “so be it” or “amen”.

These words of power can be used to manifest anything. They are even more powerful when spoken in meditation for they are delivered to the deepest parts of the self faster that way.  Within the following meditation, you are given some words of power to speak in a sacred inner temple. Read them over and make sure you have the gist of them before you do the meditation. Give yourself the authority to change them to suit your aesthetic.

Meditation of Authority

Hold the thirteenth bead of your blessing cord, the bead of Authority, the bead of the blessing of Fire in Chesed.

Count your self down into a meditative state.

Allow the screen of your mind to expand to create a sphere around you. Feel a rising sensation as sky or electric blue light begins to fill the sphere. Resonate the god name of Chesed: El

Around you a temple begins to come into shape. This is the temple of your inner authority. You are sovereign and master within this temple. It may resemble your inner temple or a place in your life where you feel in control and commanding. Look around and observe this place. Are any of your guides or spirits present here to witness? Here is the place to invoke the words of power to proclaim mastery over your life. You can use the words of power that follow or you can make up some of your own.

“I call upon the Goddess, God, and Great Spirit
who contain within them true authority, mastery, and sovereignty
of which I, (name) am an embodiment,
to hear this declaration:
I am the sovereign of my life
I grow into greater self-mastery every day
I take responsibility for my choices and make corrections when needed.
I am the greatest authority when it comes to me.
In humility, I ask to be crowned in wisdom, power, and compassion.
I release and transform all that does not serve to become greater self mastery.
All aspects and parts of me work in harmony toward self-mastery
for the highest good with free will to all, harming none
So mote it be!”

After your proclaimed words of power, you may hear an astral bell or just the words moving outwards and echoing in the temple like the whole universe is listening. There may be shifts within the temple or things that are suddenly changed about it. Observe these changes to interpret them—like dream messages or omens about your own path to mastery. Thank any spirits or guides who have joined you in this place.

The blue light begins to fill the temple until the temple fades to blue. Then the blue light begins to fade as you feel a slight decent. The screen of your mind begins to go back to its normal size and color.

Count yourself up into waking consciousness.

Give yourself clearance and balance. Ground if necessary. Write down your experience.

Contemplation

Where do you need to take more responsibility for your life? What is it you have been putting off? Are you taking care of yourself as well as others? Do you feel like a sovereign in your life?

 

Passion

Passion is the blessing of the third of the fire set of beads and the thirteenth in the blessing cord. The blessing of passion is the fire of Binah. In this blessing the holy desire sparks will and when it goes into the forming power of Binah it becomes passion. Passion brings creativity, fertility, and builds in power to overcome resistance. Passion for our holy desire, powered by our will brings us into alignment with our own divine essence.

Passion for art, music, learning, or anything else rewards us with enjoyment and the peace of knowing we are fulfilling something within us. Passion can be creative or receptive. You could be passionate about doing theater or going to see theater productions. Do not limit how your passion can manifest.

Many times we move away from our passions because of the needs of our daily lives. We get wrapped up in making money, seeing to the needs of our partners, parents, and children. We begin to stop focusing on the passions that lead us to our end goals and get mired into our means goals. Our means goals are the things that help us survive, like getting and keeping a job. We soon forget that our means goals are just things that are a means to the end goal of what you truly value and are passionate to do with your life.

With every passion there is resistance. There are reasons we just can’t do what we are passionate about and setbacks. Every incubating chick in an egg has to muster enough passion for life to break free of its shell. The shell protected it while it grew, but once it grew enough to be uncomfortable with its limitations it begins to push against the egg and break free into experiencing its passion. Resistance can be something that holds you in your egg or the challenge to embrace your passion and build your strength to escape into greater passion and fulfillment. We need to stop fearing our resistance and see it as a sign that we must build the strength of our passion to break through it.

In this meditation you will connect or reconnect to your passions and be able to recognize the places where you feel resistance to them being fulfilled. In it we will train the mind to build passion until it overcomes resistance.

Meditation of Passion

Hold the thirteenth bead of the cord, the bead of the fire of Binah, the bead of passion.

Count yourself down into a meditative state.

Allow the screen of your mind to expand to create a sphere around you. Feel a rising sensation as the sphere begins to loose all illumination until you are surrounded with a black endless void. Resonate the god name of Binah: Yod Heh Vauv Heh El-oh-heem.

In the inky blackness you see a shape forming before you. It looks like a pod forming before you. It grows out of the darkness and seems to be a indigo blue. It looks like a giant rose bud that has not yet opened. This pod holds your passions. Touch the pod and call out to your own passions to manifest within it. The pod seems to light from within. The sides of the pod become clearer and brighter.

The sides of the pod become translucent and within you can see yourself engaging in your passions. Those things that feed your soul. The images of your passions are filled with color and intensity. Even from the outside of the pod you can feel the intensity of the passion contained inside. Imagine that the contained passion is growing in strength until the light of the images is so strong you can hardly see it.

Reach forth again and step into the pod and feel the intensity of your passion. Give yourself time to feel it fully. Experience the passions that feed your soul and allow you enjoy your life. Let the passion integrate with your being until you feel that you are being contained and need to break free.

Bring your attention to the sides of the pod around you. Reflected on the sides of the pod are the reasons and excuses why you have not been fulfilling your passions. Observe these reasons as flittering images. Know that these are just the resistance that is helping your passion grow in strength and not obstacles in your way. After you feel you have observed them say to these images, “You are the resistance that builds the strength of my passion. I will blossom into who I am meant to be.”

Return your attention to the passion building in you. Feel it like an energy growing in intensity until it suddenly causes the edges of the pod begin to curl away from you at the apex of the pod. As the energy builds the pod blooms out into a flower below you and your passion seems to radiate out of you like you are a star-bright jewel within this flower. Feel what it is like to be this radiant being of pure passion and delight. Look around, you may see other pods opening and awakening to passion seemingly in response to your opening. They may look like stars within the inky void.

When you are ready to return, let the images fade, knowing you can call up this passion at anytime. You will know that when you feel resistance it is just building your passion.

As the lights fade and the void fades, you feel a gentle decent. Your screen returns to its normal shape and size.

Count yourself back up to waking consciousness.

Give yourself clearance and balance. Ground if necessary. Write down your experience.

Contemplation

In what way does your passion manifest: art, poetry, herbalism, writing, reading, learning? Do you express this passion in your life? What is the resistance that is helping you build your passion so you can overcome it and express it even more strongly?

Will

The twelfth bead on the blessing cord is the blessing of Will. The blessing of Will is the fire of Chokmah. In western mysticism there is the concept of two different types of will. There is the personal will we use to go through our daily lives and complete our own desires in this world. Then there is the Divine Will which is what we use to go toward our Great Work. The Great Work is the reason we are here in the first place. It stems from that Holy Desire we experienced in the last meditation. Divine Will is usually capitalized to denote that it is the greater or true Will. Our personal will may not always match our Divine Will. This is where we start to get off the track that spirit wants for us.

For example, say the divine wanted to experience a creative artist. The Divine Will of the person who is created to carry out this is to be artistic. This person goes through many experiences through out their life and decides through personal will that they would rather be an investment banker instead of a artist. That person never feels like they are living up to their full potential. Spirit has ways of telling this person they are in the wrong field but those signs are not always followed. For this example, the person finds that they have been fired because the company they have given their time to is doing cut backs. They apply to different places but can’t seem to get back in the door. While all of this is happening they see a sign for a art class and remember how good it felt to paint and they want to feel it again. So while they are searching for a bank they being to paint. They paint all their feelings out onto the canvas. All the despair, moments of happiness, and all that they are experiencing. The class has a small art show at the end that is visited by an art dealer who is taken by the art of our divine artist.

This is a bit simplistic an example but it is to give you a taste of how Divine Will can make you feel more yourself when your personal will is in alignment with it. The meditation for this blessing is about clearing ourselves of anything that is not in alignment with our Divine Will. The inspiration for this meditation is from Vivianne Crowley’s The Magical Life, where her own meditation of Will uses the chakra system and she aligns it with the planetary energy of Mars. Since this blog uses the system of Qabala, I have adjusted this to go through the tree one pillar at a time within the body of the practitioner.

Meditation of Will

Hold the twelfth bead on the blessing cord. The Bead of Will, the blessing of fire in Chokmah.

Count yourself down into a meditative state.

Allow the screen of your mind to expand around you to form a sphere. Resonate the god name of Chokmah: Yod heh vauv Heh

You feel a rising feeling as the sphere begins to fill with gray misty light all around you.

Above you see a great ball of opalescent white light. It begins to descend until it is directly above you. A beam of light begins to emanate from it, connecting to the space just above your head. As it touches this space, a sphere of light seems to open to it just above your head. You feel a cleansing of this space where Kether resonates in your body. The beam fills up this center until it is completely cleansed of all that does not serve your Divine Will. The beam then beings to flow down into your throat, cleansing the space that is the eleventh sphere called Daath. The white light begins to fill this space, clearing it of all that is not in alignment with Divine Will.

The beam descends into the area of your heart. Awakening and clearing the space where Tipereth is in your body of all that doesn’t serve. Then it descends into your pelvic bowl. Here it begins to clear Yesod within the body. The beam descends further down into a sphere just beneath and around the feet that connects you to this world, the sphere of Malkuth within the body. This area is cleared of all that does not serve your Divine Willl. Let the beam descend further out into the earth below you.

Bring your attention back to the sphere above you as the light begins to flow down the right side of your body. At the right side of your head it touches the sphere of Binah, cleansing away all that doesn’t serve. From here it flows down to cleanse Geburah at your right shoulder. The beam descends down to just above your right hip, cleansing Hod. When this area is cleansed it flows down the right side to your feet, down through Malkuth.

Bring your attention back up to the ball of light as the beam expands and flows down the left side of the body. It flows to the left side of the head, cleansing the area of Chokmah. The cleansing flow descends down into your left shoulder, cleansing the sphere of Chesed. When it is cleared and aligned with Divine Will, it flows down into just above the left hip to cleanse Netzach. The beam cleanses this area and then descends again to Malkuth.

Feel the cleansing beam expand again. Sense the current of Divine Will cleansing you of any thoughts, feelings, complexes that are blocking your Divine Will. Feel purpose begin to fill your every particle, filling your aura and your entire energy body. The flow expands until you are encased within a column of pure Divine Will and purpose. Ask your self “what is my Will?” Let your mind clear and be open to receive answers in the form of sensations or visions. Just experience these freely and allow analysis to come later.

Become conscious again of the gray misty light around you. Feel a gentle decent as it begins to fade and your sphere becomes its normal color. Allow the screen of your mind to return to its normal size.

Count yourself up into waking consciousness.

Give yourself clearance and balance.

Ground if necessary.

Contemplation

What is your Will right now? Is your own personal will in alignment with your Will? Why or why not? What action could you take right now to enact your Will?

Desire

Desire is the first bead of the fire quarter of the blessing cord. Desire is the blessing of the Fire of Kether. While doing my course of study with the Temple of Witchcraft, I had a profound vision when we were meditating on Chokmah of what I call the Holy Desire. It was a version of why everything in the universe was created.

In the beginning there was nothing but Kether and because the Great Spirit is everywhere without limits it could experience nothing. So it separated with a spoken word. One part of it speaking and one part listening. This yearning for experience is the Holy Desire. From this one Desire all was created and continues to be created, preserved, and destroyed. This desire also made a multitude of expressions and experiences all had by the Great Spirit in Kether because the separation is always followed by return and reintegration and the Great Spirit still has no limits but can experience them through us and everything that is.

I wrote This poem about it:

Holy Desire

From nothing and all

the holy desire

of self on to self

the speaker to the listener

the word divided us

in it we found

joy and sorrow

pleasure and pain

laughter and tears

and through them

our love is made pure

of self on to self

our holy desire

for nothing and all.

Meditation of Desire

Hold the eleventh bead of the blessing cord. The bead of Desire, the fire of Kether.

Count your self down into a meditative state.

Visualize the screen of your mind expanding into a sphere around you. Resonate the God name of Kether: “eh-heh-e-yeh”

You feel a rising sensation. Your sphere begins to fill with radiant opalescent light that seems to hold all colors inside it. As the light begins to wash over you, feel your own limits beginning to dissolve into the oneness of the Great Spirit. Express your desire to experience the Holy Desire that created the universe and the more personal and particular Holy Desire that your life fulfills.

You may feel a shifting expansion as you move through time and then a concentration until everything seems to be in one point, one “place,” one “time”. Feel the limitless oneness of this time before time. Connect to as much as you can and feel the Holy Desire of the great spirit. Know that we as beings of space and time may experience it in the way our subconscious mind can explain it, through our own symbols and experiences.

Now move forward in time to when the Holy Desire builds to a crescendo and the word is uttered and heard. You may experience a rush of expansion and a separation as one part speaks and the other parts of you listen. Continue down the new flow of time, seeing some of the Holy Desires as they create, become destroyed, and reintegrate into the one. This is the alchemy of creation and destruction.

Now focus your mind to the time just before your birth. Feel again the oneness of the Great Spirit and sense the Holy Desire creation wanted to fulfill in you. This may come to you in symbolic form. If you don’t perceive anything, know that you may see it in a dream later as the vision filters into your conciousness. Know that this Holy Desire that brought you into being changes all the time and is more complex then our human minds can comprehend at times. We fulfill these Holy Desires just by being our true selves.

Once you feel like you have gotten a sense of the Holy Desire that created you. Move forward in time until you are in the here and now. Experience again the radiant opalescent light of Kether filing the space around you. It begins to recede, leaving your sphere of the mind as you feel a gentle descent. Allow your screen to return to its normal size.

Count yourself up to a waking consciousness.

Give yourself clearance and balance. Ground if necessary.

Contemplation

What is the Holy Desire you express? Why did spirit choose to form into the being that is You? Can you ever truly fulfill this desire? Does this experience of the Holy Desire change your own concept of self and your purpose?